Bhool Bhulaiya

Ah ….so its Thrusday..13th December??? Ya that’s what my computer shows!! But seems to me a quite different than usual day. My supervisor is on leave so no more running from clinical laboratories to botanical laboratory. Past few weeks have been really hectic and I am really looking forward for this weekend break!! So just relaxing at work place and thinking something about me!! So thought to write something which has been happening in my life for last few years.

Though these days I watched a lot of movies, a trend started by my friend Ruchir, and I am proud that I am continuing the same trend after his departure to Harward. But everytime I watched the movies and next day I forgot the movie name. It really embarrassing if someone ask the name of the movie which I watched and I had to explain the story rather than simply movie name!! Not only that I often forget the names of people I interact, very seldom even though I might have shared some good moments with them in the past. And the embarrassment befalls when the guy happens to meet me greeting " Hello Kuntal!!" with a smile on his face and I, thanks to my gr8 memory, am able to say just "Hi" though I would have loved to say "Hi Y" where Y is the first name of the person.

I feel I am suffering from this psychological disorder and that worries me or is that now-a-days I have started taking my life extraordinarily serious and in the process have damaged my brain cells leading to frequent embarrassing forgetfulness?????

Sounds so serious and pitiable!!!
I know u must be praying for the "untruthfulness" of this fact because I not only one who prays for the same when I am wide awake but also in my dreams.....

So I learnt more about this disorder on Wikipedia and was shocked at its widespread infliction to the Westerners. It's considered a 'lifestyle disease' and is primarily caused by strenuous mental exercise leading to an onset of memory loss. The other factors which contribute to the disorder are physical fitness, social interaction and base memory capacity. While the WordWeb dictionary defines this word, Noun: lethologica ; the inability to remember a word or name. I feel I am still in the infancy of this disease and am struggling hard to nip it in the bud but also I fail to understand how I qualify to be one of the victims of this disease? Stress?? Physical Fitness ?? Social Interaction ?? dunno!! Base memory capacity?? May be!! Hope not!

The only time I feel like I am not suffering from this disease is during accounting of my expenditure. You ask me for past 15 days expenses and I can give you all penny details of even a 50 ore (its Swedish currency)!! But that’s sound like more of a Gujju gene rather than my mental capability!!!

So I assume myself as a diseased person than a healthy one with such a grave defect.
So again I ask myself - Am I suffering from Acute Amnesia? The answer is a BIG YES if I am an escapist and a BIG NO if I recognize the fact that it's just one's mental framework that leads one to feel so.

Sounds worrisome but thankfully it's just a "lifestyle disease" and is reversible.

Only time will tell.